Friday, February 12, 2010

It's been a hard week...

We came home early to do some serious thinking about the boys.  We decided today to make the commitment to move forward with them.  We'd signed the papers in Russia, but due to some information we received we put things on hold and came home on Thursday instead of Saturday... ergo the radio silence on this end.  We got home last night after 24 hours worth of travel.  We went straight to Jackson's room, scooped him up and took him to bed with us.  God we missed that baby!!

It's been a difficult week emotionally, lots of highs and lows and a couple of crying jags.  I am not a pretty crier; I get red and snotty, my eyes puff up and I get a sinus headache.  Not super fun at 32,000 feet!  Thankfully we had time to talk during the flight, then we talked some more this morning.  We think now that we can parent these little guys, but it's going to be challenging.

We hope that the fact that we've done this before, that Jackson is an AMAZING kid and that I only work part time means this is supposed to happen.  One child with a tough background is hard, two are downright scary!  We pray that their spirits are resilient and for the strength to help them know what joy and love can be found in a family.  We can see in their smiles the children they are meant to be, and we think we are the family to help them get there.

The hardest part is going to be waiting for them to come home.  They won't be off the database until the end of April, which means court sometime in May and home in June.  That's a LONG way away, but perhaps it's for the best.  It gives us time to set up any services they may need, get their room ready and save up some more money so I can be home for longer initially.

So... now we wait.  And wait.  And wait some more.


  1. You guys will be great parents to these two little boys - just look at your first! We'll be praying time moves quickly for you and we're glad you are home safe.

  2. I'm sorry that this ended up being such a hard decision. But it sounds like the two of you have done some serious thinking and are ready to take on the challenges. You WILL be able to do this and just think of the amazing kids you're going to be parenting. One of my favorite quotes: "Nothing great is ever achieved without much endurance." - St Catherine of Siena. Please let us know if you need anything...

  3. I am so inspired by you. Sounds like you have thought with your head and felt with your heart--can't do anything more than that. Please do put in place support for you both--you might need it along the way to stay strong, patient, and happy. You are saving these children's lives ...

  4. it sounds like you are in a good place and got there in the right way. you have the tools, the hearts and the minds to do this! congratulations.

  5. Congratulations! We never know what the future holds for us or our children, all we can do is try and be as prepared as possible. You definitely sound prepared to parent these boys!

  6. Thanks to everyone for the support. It means more than you know. Big, tearful thank you hugs to all of you!